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thistlechaser) wrote2010-07-27 06:14 am
thistlechaser) wrote2010-07-27 06:14 am
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30 Day Writing (RP!) Meme: Day Two
Warning: While I wouldn't call this post NWS, it involves some serious subject matter, including rape and torture. If those are trigger issues for you, please don't click the cut.
2. Tell us about one scene between your characters that you’ve never written or told anyone about before! Serious or not.
I should start out by saying that rape and torture are horrible things in real life. There is nothing, NOTHING, positive about them. I am very much against both in RL.
That being said, RP is not RL.
In FFXI-based RP, I played Thistle. *points at icon* He was a Corsair (a pirate). He was also an innocent, bouncy, happy-go-lucky fellow. He was friends with a woman named Nai. Nai became an Immortal (a mortal enemy of the Corsairs). While those two RPed, we brought in various NPCs. First was Deven, a Corsair love interest of Thistle's. Second was Reef, an undercover (sort of) Immortal.
Reef was one scary dude. Thistle had no idea what he was getting involved in. Reef played all sorts of mind games, gaining his trust, drawing the still "I'm not gay! >< " Thistle into his home and bed.
Getting Thistle to be unfaithful to Deven was just the tip of the iceberg. We RPed physical torture out for hours. (That may sound like a horrible way to spend a few hours, but no, it was one of the most exciting, interesting things I've ever done in RP.) Detailed torture; graphic rape; mental, physical, and emotional pain.
Quickly enough, over a few visits, sex became forced. Part blackmail, part physical force. Thistle and Reef were two different races, Reef twice as tall as Thistle. (For FFXI people: Reef was a large elvaan, Thistle a small hume, top of Thistle's head came up to Reef's belly button on in-game models.) We figured everything else was proportional too, so there was a big size difference thrown in with the rape.
While it was horrible for my character, it was some of the most amazing, exciting RP I've ever been in. The mind control (done in psychological ways, not magic), the repeated rapings, the just total using another living being as nothing but an object for another's physical, sexual, and sadistic pleasure.
That's one of the powers of RP. How many people have a good idea at the emotions that might happen during these things? (How many would want to know!) What a powerful thing it feels to be able to experience all this without actually going through it myself.
I switched question 2 and 22 around. As soon as I read 22, I knew I wanted to write about this and it wouldn't get out of my head, so I'll answer 2 on the 22nd day instead.
List of all 30 questions here.
Rereading this, I worry a bit about posting it. I hope no one thinks me (more of) a freak because I enjoyed RPing that. RP is a safe way to explore things you'd never do in RL.
2. Tell us about one scene between your characters that you’ve never written or told anyone about before! Serious or not.
I should start out by saying that rape and torture are horrible things in real life. There is nothing, NOTHING, positive about them. I am very much against both in RL.
That being said, RP is not RL.
In FFXI-based RP, I played Thistle. *points at icon* He was a Corsair (a pirate). He was also an innocent, bouncy, happy-go-lucky fellow. He was friends with a woman named Nai. Nai became an Immortal (a mortal enemy of the Corsairs). While those two RPed, we brought in various NPCs. First was Deven, a Corsair love interest of Thistle's. Second was Reef, an undercover (sort of) Immortal.
Reef was one scary dude. Thistle had no idea what he was getting involved in. Reef played all sorts of mind games, gaining his trust, drawing the still "I'm not gay! >< " Thistle into his home and bed.
Getting Thistle to be unfaithful to Deven was just the tip of the iceberg. We RPed physical torture out for hours. (That may sound like a horrible way to spend a few hours, but no, it was one of the most exciting, interesting things I've ever done in RP.) Detailed torture; graphic rape; mental, physical, and emotional pain.
Quickly enough, over a few visits, sex became forced. Part blackmail, part physical force. Thistle and Reef were two different races, Reef twice as tall as Thistle. (For FFXI people: Reef was a large elvaan, Thistle a small hume, top of Thistle's head came up to Reef's belly button on in-game models.) We figured everything else was proportional too, so there was a big size difference thrown in with the rape.
While it was horrible for my character, it was some of the most amazing, exciting RP I've ever been in. The mind control (done in psychological ways, not magic), the repeated rapings, the just total using another living being as nothing but an object for another's physical, sexual, and sadistic pleasure.
That's one of the powers of RP. How many people have a good idea at the emotions that might happen during these things? (How many would want to know!) What a powerful thing it feels to be able to experience all this without actually going through it myself.
I switched question 2 and 22 around. As soon as I read 22, I knew I wanted to write about this and it wouldn't get out of my head, so I'll answer 2 on the 22nd day instead.
List of all 30 questions here.
Rereading this, I worry a bit about posting it. I hope no one thinks me (more of) a freak because I enjoyed RPing that. RP is a safe way to explore things you'd never do in RL.
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Besides, who's more the freak? The one who likes to write about it hardcore, or the one who likes to experience it firsthand less hardcore? Heh.
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<3 Thanks! And totally agreed: I love the dark stuff!
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