Quiet, you!

[thistlechaser]

Many writers and RPers know the feeling of having someone else in your head. A character. A few characters. When writing or RPing, this is a good thing, it makes the task at hand easier to do and makes the results better. However, when the character is dead and isn't ever coming back (hear that, Jack?) it's not such a good thing.

Jack (a RP character) was a cop who made some really bad choices. Got himself into something really deep and was human enough not to be able to get himself out of it. He ended up dead at the bad guys' hands. (Hear that, Jack? You're dead. Dead. Not coming back.)

For some odd reason, he will not leave my head. He sits in That Chair in That Room (evilgrayson will know which one that is), leaning slightly forward like an eager little boy. He smiles and he waits patiently, his hands on the chair's arms. Now and then he reaches forward and taps on the glass to get my attention. He's so damned nice and so damned patient and he just smiles this semi-confused little smile at me, I haven't had the heart to snap at him.

But really, it's getting too much. His storyline is over, he's dead and gone and he just doesn't understand that.

Bah. Maybe I need to write a story about him or something... but then that might just encourage him...

Comments

[evilgrayson.livejournal.com]

Poor Jack. To paraphrase Motorhead, Jim ain't no nice guy after all...

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

This is going to sound really odd (odder than having other people in your head!), but I think Jack really *is* dead. I mean, I think I have a "ghost" in my head. There are a couple of reasons for this:

The first is what he does. The occasional tap. He shouldn't be able to lift his arms, and most of the time he keeps them down, but now and then he doesn't. Tap, tap, a finger against the glass.

The second is how he is. Just mildly confused. Just sitting there, waiting. No thoughts about the past (whew), just vague curiosity about the future. Bored and lonely now. He's just waiting...

[evilgrayson.livejournal.com]

No, I know exactly what you mean - and I think I know why, too. And how to lay him to rest. If he's starting to get annoying I can run something for you?

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Thanks, but now that I got it figured out, I'm going to let him be. Since I killed him (while Grayson did the actual act, it was at least as much my doing -- really, more), I'm going to let him stay and ... and whatever. Figure things out or wait or watch or whatever else.

(Man, now I'm wondering what would be kinder to do for him. Thistle, he's not real! This has gotten silly!)