Oh look, it's been a week.

[thistlechaser]

Sometimes I post multiple times a day, then sometimes somehow a whole week slips by without a post. In the last week I've written multiple posts in my head, but often I never get them typed out.

A few nights ago I had a bad dream about my dead cat. I used to love dreaming, decades ago I trained myself to remember them every night, and now for the first time I'm starting to regret that. I don't have bad dreams about her ever night, but that they're random is almost worse -- I never know when one is coming. In this latest one I was traveling with her dead body (ugh, why??) in a normal cat carrying case through an airport. A group of guys tried to steal my backpack, and while getting it back the carrying case was stolen. I was crying because what an awful person I was to lose my cat's poor dead body. Then, worse(?), I found it all wrapped up in fabric around her middle. (Man, and just typing this out has me crying again.) I wish my brain would get over this! It's only during, after, or remembering the dreams that makes me upset, I don't cry over it (or honestly think much or relive it) in my day to day life. Stupid brain, please let this go. I know it's not my fault, I did all I could, I spent as much money as was needed, I made the best decisions I could, please let this go.

In less morbid news, I'm leveling a new character in WoW. I hate leveling, I totally didn't intend to, but I got a name freed as a replacement bank alt. The problem with my current bank alt (in addition to the name), is that he's low level, thus paying too much money in vendor prices. If I level him, I can work on rep, get flying, and have extra profession slots! Because yes, I do need alchemist #7.

RP is going okay. I lost all the regulars I used to RP with, which sucks somewhat, but I'm meeting new people and trying go build new circles. It always surprises me (though it shouldn't) that meeting people online can be as hard as doing it RL. Online feels like my "natural" environment, it should be easier to meet people. (Though that all my onlineness is taking place on WoW does make it harder.)

Still not done reading Dance with Dragons, have about 10% left to go. It has good chapters and bad, but that I don't care about one big plot point (the biggest plot in the book) makes things a little more meh for me. I've skimmed two or three chapters so far and every time we come back to this plot I'm tempted to do it again.

Hopefully it won't be another week until I post again! Oh hey, in a few days it will by my 9 year anniversary on LJ.

Comments

[veloxe.livejournal.com]

Man hearing people talk about Dances with Dragons makes me want to get there faster! I'm still working through ASoS though. Been several times where I wanted to throw the book across the room after plot points unfolded but I didn't want to go across the room to get the book again to find out what happens next! I guess that means I like it at least XD

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Ha! DON'T RUSH IT! Take your time and enjoy it! Once you're caught up, you'll join the rest of us in a multiple year wait for the next one. :D

[ashmedai.livejournal.com]

Oh man, that sounds like a terrible dream. How long ago did your cat die? I had to have my old cat put to sleep about 7 years ago, and I remember I couldn't get over it for the longest time, so I think I can relate to that quite a bit.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Just a few months, so I guess it's understandable. (I feel like I should know exactly how long it's been, to the hour.)

[ashmedai.livejournal.com]

That's understandable, yes. I was inconsolable, and for weeks it was literally all I could think about. I wasn't prepared for the guilt, or for my mind going over every minute detail obsessively, trying to identify that ONE thing I might have missed that would have made a difference (even though logically I knew there was nothing). The only thing that helped me was adopting a new kitten, and even then it took a while. It does get better, though. But it's a really awful time - we get so very attached to them. :)

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think getting a new cat helped for part of it (my apartment was so lonely and empty without a cat, I couldn't stand it). Even though I don't consciously feel guilty, apparently I still do since my dreams keep going back to that!

Thanks! :)