Can't go too long without a post

[thistlechaser]

Been five days since my last post. While I've been reading my friends list, I haven't felt like posting. Lots of points in semi-random order:

* Less than five days until I go into the hospital. I've gained some weight back, but not too much. More than I'd like, but still within the range the surgeon wanted me to lose. I keep thinking "this will be the last time I can ever have..." and how can you resist eating whatever that is? I'm really depressed and down. I wish I were excited about this, but it's a "have to" not a "want to" situation. I don't want to fall over dead in the next few years, so... no choice.

* Part of my depressed issue is likely period-related. Where the hell is it?! It's now nine days late. (No chance of pregnancy.) If I get it when I go into the hospital, I'm going to be pissed. I don't want to have to deal with it then! Sigh. Damned body.

* I'm starting to have stress bad dreams. I expect them to only get worse the closer Monday gets.

* Work sucks. I'm taking three weeks off for this, but in our group there's no reduction of amount of work or deadlines because of vacation -- so I have the same work and the same deadlines, with three weeks less to do it in. Way to let us enjoy our vacations. Most people in my group work though theirs.

* I read a Harry Potter fanfic for the first time in years. In Loco Parentis by Dolores_Crane. I loved the first chapter of it, though the second and third less so. It's everything I usually wouldn't have liked, but it was so well written that it worked. Hermione POV. Hermione/Harry (though it's minor). Snape/Harry (mostly in the background). It was a more realistic look at muggles at Hogwarts. At the end it became a bit preachy for me, but all in all, I liked it a lot.

Boy do I miss Snape/Harry. I don't think I've had an OTP since then. I think Snarry was what sparked my enjoyment of age and power differences in fic relationships. There was so much good HP fanfic back when I was in the fandom. I should poke about and see if there's more good Snarry out there (or heck, reread the older good stuff, it's not going to be like I remember it).

* This is an odd time. Usually I'd be wishing for Friday to get here, especially when that Friday was the start of a three week vacation, but this time I'm wishing the week never ends. At least I got good RP tonight, probably the last of it until my mother flies home in two and a half weeks.

* I'm reading the best book, but it's so long, it's taking me forever to finish (yay!). 24 hours in and I'm only just over 50% done (it's 1,000+ pages long; for comparison, the first Game of Thrones book was 800). Usually a book takes me 10-12 hours to read. Stormlight Archive (Way of the King) by Brandon Sanderson. From his website: "I’ve written hundreds of thousands of words worth of worldbuilding for it". You can so tell he has all that worldbuilding done. It's amazing. And man, I'd kill to see all his notes about the world.

Comments

[mayanas.livejournal.com]

My period is very sensitive to stress so whenever I have a big event coming up it will rearrange itself to the most inconvenient time (or so it feels like). That's no fun, body! I hope yours is behaving better!

My venture into fanfic is sporadic at best but sometimes the bug hits and I binge read. I can read all parings in HP though I like when they're Hermione-centric. I like the age- and power disparity in fic a lot and started out with Lucius/Hermione because what kind of journey dont they need to get through to make that relationship not in every way messed up? Character growth! I have since switched more to Draco/Hermione since I think he is a more interesting character to explore, (and there are more fics that 'redeem' him believably).

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I figured it was stress. I'm confident that it will hit once I'm in the hospital or soon after. (I guess at least I'll be on good drugs by then, so cramps won't be an issue.)

I'm not much of a het reader, but I'll read Lucius/anyone (other than Draco). You're right, the journey Lucius/Hermione would have to make would be a great read!

[kishenehn.livejournal.com]

Just an all-purpose *hug* this morning ...

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :)

[kamalloy.livejournal.com]

Yeah, stress definitely affects my period, too. It'll inevitably happen exactly when I don't want it to. :/

The longest I ever went without a period was nearly three months in high school, when I was running track for a season. I was miserable enough, I guess my body decided it didn't need to add to the misery. ^^;

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm betting that's it, too. Blah! I bet it'll happen in or as I'm just leaving the hospital (hopefully the latter).

Haha, it was very kind of your period to be that considerate! ;)

[doxxxicle.livejournal.com]

"Work sucks. I'm taking three weeks off for this, but in our group there's no reduction of amount of work or deadlines because of vacation -- so I have the same work and the same deadlines, with three weeks less to do it in. Way to let us enjoy our vacations. Most people in my group work though theirs."

WTF? What's the point in taking vacation if you work through it?!?!

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Our group works nights, weekends, and vacations. One of our members works 12-16 hour days, seven days a week, no exceptions. It sucks. But because our business section brings in less money than the other sections (we compete with companies offering free tools, no other sections have to), we get a lot less manpower and money.

[doxxxicle.livejournal.com]

That's not work. That's a sweat shop. :(

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeeeep.

[orangerful.livejournal.com]

I know stress throws off my period, which is just mean because what makes a girl even MORE stressed than guessing what day her period will start? Girl parts are just plain evil!

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yep, to all that. As if I needed more stress! Will it start before? During? After my hospital stay? Am I depressed because I'm PMS? Or really am? WHO KNOWS! Welcome to being female!

:P

[diello.livejournal.com]

Switch up your mindset by saying "I don't eat [insert junky foods]." instead of "I can't/shouldn't eat [insert junky foods]." It's going to be fucking ridiculous, but it's one of those brain tricks that will eventually trick you into thinking it's the truth, and that'll help make things easier in the long run, and much like telling people you're allergic, it will deter people from offering temptations again.

My period is a monster. The stress will keep it from arriving in a timely fashion until the event of stress is upon us, and then my uterus is all "oh, we survived to this day after all," and then let loose. Then it will be early next time, and require many sacrifices of every delight that ruins my diet. EVERY delightful junkfood. Fuck you, uterus.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's a good idea. Thanks!

The stress will keep it from arriving in a timely fashion until the event of stress is upon us, and then my uterus is all "oh, we survived to this day after all," and then let loose.

Yes! Exactly that! I swear, body, you're frustrating sometimes.

[ani-mama.livejournal.com]

I don't think you will have to cut out all your favorite foods forever. That sounds rather unhealthy and unrealistic. Shouldn't you be able to get back to some of it, in small portions, after the recovery period?

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Some of it. I keep telling myself that I'll (probably) be able to have pizza again one day. Things like bread, potato, likely beef/red meats, maybe dairy, anything at all sweet, fried things, popcorn, and pasta will be out forever (will make me sick or be dangerous if I have it). I'm probably forgetting some things from that list. There could be foods that I'll personally react badly to. Chances are good I'll become lactose intolerant afterwards (but at least there's a pill for that). It's kind of depressing.

[fbhjr.livejournal.com]

Best wishes on it going well at the hospital!

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Thank you!