At least I have someone to blame...

[thistlechaser]

I work from 8-5. Of late, since sleep is a word I no longer know the meaning of, I've been coming in at 7:15-7:30. This morning, at 7:20, I sat down at my desk and started working. By 8:30, I was halfway done with a job. Also at 8:30, I noticed an error that made my whole hour of working wasted -- I'd have to do it all over.

And it's because I didn't check something before starting. One date wrong, repeated over and over, so everything needed to be redone.

I'm glad it was my mistake, my stupidity, not something outside me. I actually got less angry. (I was stupid and worked too fast, so my "punishment" was having to do it over.) If it had been someone else's fault, I would have been *really angry*, and I just don't need that.

Oh sleep, oh sleep, why have you forsaken me? I turn off my lights at midnight. Fall asleep between 1:30 and 2, and wake up at 4. 4 AM. So I'm getting 2-2.5 hours of sleep, night after night. Monday the lack of sleep made me giggly all day, and Tuesday I dragged through the day, but today I'm dead. 6-7 hours of sleep over three nights just doesn't cut it, and the worst part is it's just myself keeping me up. There's no reason for me to wake up -- wide-awake wake up -- at 4AM. It's dark and quiet and even my cat is asleep then. But yet my eyes snap open and my brain comes online and fully awake.

Bah.

Comments

[tersa.livejournal.com]

If your sleep problems are really that chronic, and by that description, I think they are, I would seriously, seriously, recommend talking to your doctor of advice nurse about it. There may be something else going on. Sleeping disorders of that magnitude are generally a symptom of something wrong.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I would, except I think it's stress (and maybe other things related to stress?). In general, on the weekends I can sleep (though not more than 8 hours, no matter how behind I am). If this extended over the weekend, then I'd force myself to go to the doctor, yeah.

Thanks. :)

[tersa.livejournal.com]

Stress is also a problem, and can cause real and documented physical ailments. Stress at the levels which I think would cause the symptoms you're describing can actually cause your body to eat itself. Bad.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Stress ... can actually cause your body to eat itself.

Woo. Easier than dieting?

More seriously, I know, yeah. I've been working on reducing it, and (oddly) I feel like it's going down, so I don't know what's up with my sleeping. I don't think the sun is rising so early that the birds would start chirping at 4, but if this happens tomorrow I'll listen and check. For some reason I stay really alert when I sleep, and tiny little things (a car starting in the parking lot, my cat jumping on the counter) make me wake up fast.

[tersa.livejournal.com]

Woo. Easier than dieting?

Unfortunately, not that kind of eating itself. :) Things like destroying brain cells and nerves and the immune system. Fun things like that!

Just worried about you. :)

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Just worried about you. :)

Yeah, I know. Thanks. :)