RL bits and pieces

[thistlechaser]

I realized this morning that I haven't yet had any stress dreams/nightmares about my upcoming vacation. That's especially odd, as I'm flying off instead of having my mother fly in. I guess it almost feels like it's not real? Even though it's less than a month away? (New readers: I'm a complete and utter stressball, and as I remember multiple dreams a night, it tends to really come out in my dreams. Any changes in my life, even things like vacations, tend to stress me out.)

I don't know if part of it is that I'm distracted by my eventual-move (two stressful things canceling each other out instead of feeding each other?). Once I'm back from my vacation, I need to make more progress on that. My lease is up early in September, so it's not pressing yet, but it will be before long. (And boy am I happy I was able to save most of my boxes from the last time I moved -- I knew I would be!)

I made the mistake of starting a new farm in Stardew Valley. That game is such a perfect trap for me -- I can accomplish things in it, which makes me feel like I'm actually accomplishing things in real life, which means I feel okay just sitting there and playing instead of actually accomplishing things real life. (But boy, is this second play-through going amazingly well. By Spring 10 Year 1 I had both backpack upgrades. By Spring 15 I had my first house upgrade and three tool upgrades done. While it feels evil of me, I'm going to back Walmart JoJa Corp instead of the community center -- I'm swimming in money, so it should be faster and easier. I'm going to totally avoid the moneysink of farm buildings, since I don't like interacting with animals anyway. Except a slime hutch. I seem to like slimes a lot and miss the feral one from my first save.)

I think/hope my toe has finally actually healed up. I've been off antibiotics a couple weeks now, and it seems to be mostly the same. Now and then I get a twinge of pain from it, which worries me a lot, but it's not reopening nor is it getting hot. (It's especially a worry now, because if it does get bad again, that means IV antibiotics... and my vacation in less than a month.)

Sadly, yet not unexpectedly, my weight has gone up a little. SIGH! Not surprising, since somehow I went down almost five pounds last week (and I'm 98% sure I'm in PMS). Only three pounds as of this morning, but it still depresses me.

I started running, but as I just barely started it (last week), I can't do all that much yet. Other than yesterday, I've been enjoying it. (This whole week I've felt tired and down, and just didn't want to do it yesterday. For the same reason, I've skipped doing pushups twice in a row now.

This whole week I've just felt physically down. Blah. Tired nonstop even though I'm sleeping the same amount of house. Super duper extra hungry, too. Really, all this goes with the PMS thing, I think. (Edit: You know, it's amazing that, at this point in my life, I still have to add "I think" onto that. I'm approaching the point of not having to deal with it anymore, and yet still I don't know for sure. Bodies...)

Comments

[mayanas.livejournal.com]

Hah yea. I guess I'm closing in on around 230 periods (rough estimate) and STILL I'm all "maybe this hedache/backache/nausea/fatigue/whatever is due to having my period. Or maybe it's something else." Despite my period usually always containing all of those. Still not sure. The only thing I am sure about it is cramps because I don't get those outside the period whereas the other stuff MAY have other causes. I'm just not SURE.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I guess that's what it is -- all these things could come from other sources, so we can't be sure. For me, even cramps aren't unique -- I get mine in my thighs instead of my back/stomach, and so it could come from walking too much or any number of other reasons.

[bacchuslives.livejournal.com]

So why do you think you aren't having the usual allotment of stress nightmares? Great news on the toe...I hate antibiotics...toes crossed that it stays well...

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I have no idea, but I'm really curious about it. Maybe because flying will be a (sort of) new experience -- it's been ~20 years since I was last on a plane?

[bacchuslives.livejournal.com]

really? 20 years? I'd think that would make for more anxiety... Your from the north east, correct? Have you not been back, or do you take the train?

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I know, you'd think so, right? Yep, from the east coast, now in California. I've just not been back at all, each year my mother flew out here to visit me instead. First time of me going back.

[bacchuslives.livejournal.com]

Bad daughter! (just kidding ;)

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I know, right? :P But I pay for her to fly here each year, and she said she likes coming, so I just let it keep going in that direction.

[bacchuslives.livejournal.com]

Well, if you foot the bill, then that vaults you into the good daughter realm...

[ashmedai.livejournal.com]

Great to hear about your toe, that really went on for a long time!

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Agreed! Then tonight I dropped something on it. Ugh! It hurt for an hour or so, so badly. We have toenails for a reason. :(

[ashmedai.livejournal.com]

Ugh no! I hope it's better now! Fingers crossed it won't get inflamed again. :(

[teaandfailure.livejournal.com]

What good news about the toe! Because seriously, WHAT THE HELL, TOE.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I KNOW RIGHT? Then tonight it became WHAT THE HELL, ME. I actually dropped something. On the newly healed, toenail-less toe. I cursed more than I've cursed in a long time. :P

[teaandfailure.livejournal.com]

This made me giggle because of the old trope where a character says NOT IN THE FACE, except I imagined you saying NOT IN THE TOE.