At least I have someone to blame...
May. 7th, 2003 09:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thistlechaserI work from 8-5. Of late, since sleep is a word I no longer know the meaning of, I've been coming in at 7:15-7:30. This morning, at 7:20, I sat down at my desk and started working. By 8:30, I was halfway done with a job. Also at 8:30, I noticed an error that made my whole hour of working wasted -- I'd have to do it all over.
And it's because I didn't check something before starting. One date wrong, repeated over and over, so everything needed to be redone.
I'm glad it was my mistake, my stupidity, not something outside me. I actually got less angry. (I was stupid and worked too fast, so my "punishment" was having to do it over.) If it had been someone else's fault, I would have been *really angry*, and I just don't need that.
Oh sleep, oh sleep, why have you forsaken me? I turn off my lights at midnight. Fall asleep between 1:30 and 2, and wake up at 4. 4 AM. So I'm getting 2-2.5 hours of sleep, night after night. Monday the lack of sleep made me giggly all day, and Tuesday I dragged through the day, but today I'm dead. 6-7 hours of sleep over three nights just doesn't cut it, and the worst part is it's just myself keeping me up. There's no reason for me to wake up -- wide-awake wake up -- at 4AM. It's dark and quiet and even my cat is asleep then. But yet my eyes snap open and my brain comes online and fully awake.
Bah.
And it's because I didn't check something before starting. One date wrong, repeated over and over, so everything needed to be redone.
I'm glad it was my mistake, my stupidity, not something outside me. I actually got less angry. (I was stupid and worked too fast, so my "punishment" was having to do it over.) If it had been someone else's fault, I would have been *really angry*, and I just don't need that.
Oh sleep, oh sleep, why have you forsaken me? I turn off my lights at midnight. Fall asleep between 1:30 and 2, and wake up at 4. 4 AM. So I'm getting 2-2.5 hours of sleep, night after night. Monday the lack of sleep made me giggly all day, and Tuesday I dragged through the day, but today I'm dead. 6-7 hours of sleep over three nights just doesn't cut it, and the worst part is it's just myself keeping me up. There's no reason for me to wake up -- wide-awake wake up -- at 4AM. It's dark and quiet and even my cat is asleep then. But yet my eyes snap open and my brain comes online and fully awake.
Bah.
