Disturbing things (RL)

This ad is a darned good way to start off a post about disturbing things. Sheesh, gah. That haunts me. (Work safe.)

The other disturbing thing is my brain. I've been having the worst dreams lately!

Three nights ago: Had a dream my mother and I were having sex. GAH GAH GAH! Wrong! Bad! Oh my god! A total brain-needs-scrubbing moment, worse because flashes of it kept coming back to me the next day.

Two nights ago: My mother, sister, and I were shopping at Ikea. FFXI goblins aggroed and I couldn't save my family from them. Oddly it wasn't even my family dying that was the really disturbing part, it was that aggroing goblins were lurking in the real world, waiting to pounce on us and kill us. (Plus goblins + funky Ikea furniture was very, very, very brain-breaking.)

Last night: I dreamed I had a very rare steak, a bowl of hot oil, and a bowl of some dipping sauce. I cut a chunk off the steak, dipped it in the oil to let it finish cooking, then into the sauce, then ate it. The whole dream was me eating this big, bloody stake. I woke up and nearly threw up. My first thought was 'Oh my god, what did I do?!', but even remembering it was a dream didn't help much.

Dear Brain,

We should work together! As a team! Not against each other!

Please don't make me stab you.

Love,
Thistle

Disturbing things (RL)

This ad is a darned good way to start off a post about disturbing things. Sheesh, gah. That haunts me. (Work safe.)

The other disturbing thing is my brain. I've been having the worst dreams lately!

Three nights ago: Had a dream my mother and I were having sex. GAH GAH GAH! Wrong! Bad! Oh my god! A total brain-needs-scrubbing moment, worse because flashes of it kept coming back to me the next day.

Two nights ago: My mother, sister, and I were shopping at Ikea. FFXI goblins aggroed and I couldn't save my family from them. Oddly it wasn't even my family dying that was the really disturbing part, it was that aggroing goblins were lurking in the real world, waiting to pounce on us and kill us. (Plus goblins + funky Ikea furniture was very, very, very brain-breaking.)

Last night: I dreamed I had a very rare steak, a bowl of hot oil, and a bowl of some dipping sauce. I cut a chunk off the steak, dipped it in the oil to let it finish cooking, then into the sauce, then ate it. The whole dream was me eating this big, bloody stake. I woke up and nearly threw up. My first thought was 'Oh my god, what did I do?!', but even remembering it was a dream didn't help much.

Dear Brain,

We should work together! As a team! Not against each other!

Please don't make me stab you.

Love,
Thistle

I'm such a... I don't know what you'd call me (FFXI)

I saw the Energy (Samurai) video ages ago and loved it, but lost my copy and could never find a download for a new one. Today someone posted a link on the LJ FFXI comm! (Rightclick, save as, then open it in Firefox or IE or whatever. It's the slowest download I've seen in years, but it's worth it.)

For a long time (probably since I saw my first 'SAM beats Maat in 20 seconds/3 moves' video) I've thought the job was pretty cool, but it was really low down on my list of things to XP. Now it keeps sneaking back up to the top.

Oddly (or not...) I think I've had enough of BLU, but I'm getting annoyed that I keep doing this! I find a new job, fall in love with it, then in the mid 30s fall totally out of love and never play the job again. :(

I wanted to use "job whore" in the title, but I don't think that's the right name for whatever this is I'm doing. I feel like a kid, unable to concentrate on any one thing for long periods of time. (I really did want to take NIN to 75! And BLU high, too! But now I don't want to touch either anymore...)

Bah. Need More Concentration! Dedication! Some sort of -ation!

I'm such a... I don't know what you'd call me (FFXI)

I saw the Energy (Samurai) video ages ago and loved it, but lost my copy and could never find a download for a new one. Today someone posted a link on the LJ FFXI comm! (Rightclick, save as, then open it in Firefox or IE or whatever. It's the slowest download I've seen in years, but it's worth it.)

For a long time (probably since I saw my first 'SAM beats Maat in 20 seconds/3 moves' video) I've thought the job was pretty cool, but it was really low down on my list of things to XP. Now it keeps sneaking back up to the top.

Oddly (or not...) I think I've had enough of BLU, but I'm getting annoyed that I keep doing this! I find a new job, fall in love with it, then in the mid 30s fall totally out of love and never play the job again. :(

I wanted to use "job whore" in the title, but I don't think that's the right name for whatever this is I'm doing. I feel like a kid, unable to concentrate on any one thing for long periods of time. (I really did want to take NIN to 75! And BLU high, too! But now I don't want to touch either anymore...)

Bah. Need More Concentration! Dedication! Some sort of -ation!

Lost and FFXI

Ha ha, Lost is so evil. I can't believe the season is ending next week! Going to be odd not having new eps, even if I don't watch them with all my attention anymore.

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FFXI was uneventful, which is good. Went and did the solo parts of Sandy mission 9.1 (sneaking through Cape T and Valley of Sorrows -- what horrible horrible zones). Lived though! Yay!

Since I don't feel like XPing anymore I decided to take on a new project: Getting any subcrafts not already at 60 to 60. (Not counting metals since I hate mining and working with metal.) Got cooking from 55 to 60 tonight. Tomorrow night should be bonecrafting; currently at 57, going to farm scorps all night and make scorp rings/desynth/make more rings till it hits 60. After that will be cloth (sitting at 58 now).

There isn't real reason to do this, other than that I can and it's something to do. Plus I have too many crystals so this should help on space.

Maybe once it's done I'll feel like doing something more productive again...

Lost and FFXI

Ha ha, Lost is so evil. I can't believe the season is ending next week! Going to be odd not having new eps, even if I don't watch them with all my attention anymore.

--

FFXI was uneventful, which is good. Went and did the solo parts of Sandy mission 9.1 (sneaking through Cape T and Valley of Sorrows -- what horrible horrible zones). Lived though! Yay!

Since I don't feel like XPing anymore I decided to take on a new project: Getting any subcrafts not already at 60 to 60. (Not counting metals since I hate mining and working with metal.) Got cooking from 55 to 60 tonight. Tomorrow night should be bonecrafting; currently at 57, going to farm scorps all night and make scorp rings/desynth/make more rings till it hits 60. After that will be cloth (sitting at 58 now).

There isn't real reason to do this, other than that I can and it's something to do. Plus I have too many crystals so this should help on space.

Maybe once it's done I'll feel like doing something more productive again...