So tired and... stuff.
Nov. 18th, 2005 09:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thistlechaserGood thing: I slept last night! Yay!
Bad thing: Grr grr bad dreams. Someone was going to chop my cat's head off with an axe, and I was trying to run to save her but had that oh so cliched "running and running but not getting anywhere" thing going on. Stupid brain.
To all the non-FFXI players reading this, assuming you still read my LJ at all. :P I know content has gotten really FFXI-heavy lately, but I expect that to be changing shortly. On (hopefully) Monday I'll be doing the very biggest event in the game (in my opinion). It's sort of like... if there was a test in RL that you had to take before you could become an adult. A test of your entire life thus far, everything you've learned, every skill you have, how hard you work, how you handle things under pressure. My entire year+ of playing FFXI has lead up to this one test, so I'm (I hope understandably) rather focused on it at the moment. (And I keep saying I need a "test", it's just a piece of paper that drops off a high level mob. You trade it to let you do this one fight.)
This is going to be an odd weekend: I'm actually going to have the whole day "off" on Saturday (assuming I'm able to get a DRK test tonight). I can't XP, I can't do anything that will make me XP. At the very most I'll be farming vines to make the last of the hi-pots I need for my Maat fight. It's sort of funny to think that I can actually do RL stuff if I want. I could do my laundry! I could, um... play WoW!
Sometime early yesterday I stopped being nervous about Maat. I feel ready. Even though Loth never got the stoneskin torque so I can't buy a charge off it for the fight, I feel ... mostly okay. It's kind of odd, but I wish Maat was a real person so I could tell him how I feel right now, to tell him what I've learned, to apologize for hurting him as much as he'll make me before he gives up or gets KOed.
I'm really, really tempted to go fight him tonight if I get a test, instead of waiting until Monday so I can level up mid-battle, but it will be smart to wait so I will wait. But I'm ready to fight him now. I'm not nervous, I'm not pacing, I'm confident in my skills as a DRK. I think I can do this, and I can't wait to try. :)
(Now won't this be embarrassing if I fail over and over and over again?)
Bad thing: Grr grr bad dreams. Someone was going to chop my cat's head off with an axe, and I was trying to run to save her but had that oh so cliched "running and running but not getting anywhere" thing going on. Stupid brain.
To all the non-FFXI players reading this, assuming you still read my LJ at all. :P I know content has gotten really FFXI-heavy lately, but I expect that to be changing shortly. On (hopefully) Monday I'll be doing the very biggest event in the game (in my opinion). It's sort of like... if there was a test in RL that you had to take before you could become an adult. A test of your entire life thus far, everything you've learned, every skill you have, how hard you work, how you handle things under pressure. My entire year+ of playing FFXI has lead up to this one test, so I'm (I hope understandably) rather focused on it at the moment. (And I keep saying I need a "test", it's just a piece of paper that drops off a high level mob. You trade it to let you do this one fight.)
This is going to be an odd weekend: I'm actually going to have the whole day "off" on Saturday (assuming I'm able to get a DRK test tonight). I can't XP, I can't do anything that will make me XP. At the very most I'll be farming vines to make the last of the hi-pots I need for my Maat fight. It's sort of funny to think that I can actually do RL stuff if I want. I could do my laundry! I could, um... play WoW!
Sometime early yesterday I stopped being nervous about Maat. I feel ready. Even though Loth never got the stoneskin torque so I can't buy a charge off it for the fight, I feel ... mostly okay. It's kind of odd, but I wish Maat was a real person so I could tell him how I feel right now, to tell him what I've learned, to apologize for hurting him as much as he'll make me before he gives up or gets KOed.
I'm really, really tempted to go fight him tonight if I get a test, instead of waiting until Monday so I can level up mid-battle, but it will be smart to wait so I will wait. But I'm ready to fight him now. I'm not nervous, I'm not pacing, I'm confident in my skills as a DRK. I think I can do this, and I can't wait to try. :)
(Now won't this be embarrassing if I fail over and over and over again?)
