Mama I'm coming home... (FFXI)
Jan. 24th, 2011 09:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thistlechaserI've never had a strong feeling of home in my life. Never have I lived in a place where I felt fully that I belonged there, that it was the perfectly exactly right place for me to be. I like where I live now, but when I return there my chest doesn't grow warm with that "home" feeling.
Today, for the first time since I quit FFXI, I listened to the whole ToAU soundtrack. I looked at Aht Urhgan screenshots, I watched the ToAU trailer on youtube. My chest grew warm not just with the feeling of belonging, but with the desire to go back. I want to go home.
It's been almost two years since I quit FFXI. I'll be coming back to a new server. I won't be able to have the same name anymore. And, perhaps sadly, I know I won't stay. I'm coming to visit. A month, two maybe. I don't like XPing, I don't want to mission. I want to visit, to hit a Besieged if I can catch one. I want to listen to the music and see the cities again.
I want to go home, at least for a little while.
Unfortunately I've gotten a new computer since I quit, so I'm going to have to do all the installing and downloading again. And, because of how S-E does billing, I'll be paying a full month's price for these last few days of the month, but $18 won't break me.
It's going to be interesting with how little I remember. Interesting and exciting. :)
Today, for the first time since I quit FFXI, I listened to the whole ToAU soundtrack. I looked at Aht Urhgan screenshots, I watched the ToAU trailer on youtube. My chest grew warm not just with the feeling of belonging, but with the desire to go back. I want to go home.
It's been almost two years since I quit FFXI. I'll be coming back to a new server. I won't be able to have the same name anymore. And, perhaps sadly, I know I won't stay. I'm coming to visit. A month, two maybe. I don't like XPing, I don't want to mission. I want to visit, to hit a Besieged if I can catch one. I want to listen to the music and see the cities again.
I want to go home, at least for a little while.
Unfortunately I've gotten a new computer since I quit, so I'm going to have to do all the installing and downloading again. And, because of how S-E does billing, I'll be paying a full month's price for these last few days of the month, but $18 won't break me.
It's going to be interesting with how little I remember. Interesting and exciting. :)
