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thistlechaserWow. Apparently I've even used this subject line before! Luckily it was for an archaeology post and not this topic. And huh! I used the same line once before, in the body of a post, on a FFXI post about what a good night I had for making gil. That makes me smile! I really should reread all of my FFXI posts one day...
Funny how strange words from FFXI look now. Geezards. Stroper Chyme. Shihei. The prices amuse me too. "It's very very very nice to have all these made as a hi-pot costs 3K (or more now?) to buy..." when I've heard that things like ori ores are down to 5K.
Anyway, I can look phrases up in my LJ because I have it archived! Especially with the DDOS attacks lately I'd recommend that everyone back theirs up, except the archive tool is no longer supported and doesn't work for most people anymore. Thankfully my version still does.
ANYWAY, the point of this post. WoW is so depressingly empty. My friends list is generally empty all day and all night (not counting AH sellers and their alts that I track). In fact, it's even more depressing that my flist is JUST AH sellers...
I should go to SMC and look for random RP, but I've been so meh lately. Work has been so bad that I don't have the energy to put myself out there on WoW, which means I'm not meeting new people, which means I stay lonely, which means WoW is no relief from work... it's a cycle.
I took Keen out of my personal guild and put him in a social one, but that wasn't much help. The final straw in that was when I got spoken to for speaking out against someone who saw no issues with and in fact was amused by the name Adolfcritler (with some alt characters thrown in there). This person said Hitler was just an average person, nothing special, blah blah blah. I replied back with something like "Yeah, he just tried to kill off an entire race..." and I got talked to because apparently there's a rule against "being sarcastic in response to someone's personal opinion".
So anyway, this is a roundabout way of talking about an embarrassing issue: I'm middle aged, and for the first time in my entire life that I'm struggling to make friends online. Have I changed? Am I withdrawing even more? Is my obsession with making money on the AH getting in the way? Is it just that so much of the WoW playerbase isn't a match for me that it's harder for me to find people who are?
Maybe I need to take a break from the AH. I'm up to 260K, which remains way way way more gold than anyone needs. (But the gold is there to be made! How can I stop!) Spending my time random RPing would mean I meet more people which would mean more chance of meeting good people.
I joined a forum-based RP, but haven't been back since my character was approved (seems like too much work to catch up on all the 848413421 page treads).
I always come back to: Maybe I should join a MU*. I know two that are active (Garou and a FF one). I'm not a great match on either theme anymore, though I'd lean towards the FF one, though I had some kind of issue with a staffer there (we got into some kind of fight? I don't think I was kicked off the game, I think I just left...).
What it comes down to is I want the same thing online as I want at my job: I want something good to just fall into my lap. A good, tight circle of friends online, a good job RL. No work on my part, just "Here, Thistle, for you! This is what you want and were waiting for!". This is very unlikely to happen.
Rereading this post before posting it depresses me. I wonder if I'll post it at all! Or maybe I will and I'll come scurrying back in 15 minutes to take it down and hope no one saw it!
Funny how strange words from FFXI look now. Geezards. Stroper Chyme. Shihei. The prices amuse me too. "It's very very very nice to have all these made as a hi-pot costs 3K (or more now?) to buy..." when I've heard that things like ori ores are down to 5K.
Anyway, I can look phrases up in my LJ because I have it archived! Especially with the DDOS attacks lately I'd recommend that everyone back theirs up, except the archive tool is no longer supported and doesn't work for most people anymore. Thankfully my version still does.
ANYWAY, the point of this post. WoW is so depressingly empty. My friends list is generally empty all day and all night (not counting AH sellers and their alts that I track). In fact, it's even more depressing that my flist is JUST AH sellers...
I should go to SMC and look for random RP, but I've been so meh lately. Work has been so bad that I don't have the energy to put myself out there on WoW, which means I'm not meeting new people, which means I stay lonely, which means WoW is no relief from work... it's a cycle.
I took Keen out of my personal guild and put him in a social one, but that wasn't much help. The final straw in that was when I got spoken to for speaking out against someone who saw no issues with and in fact was amused by the name Adolfcritler (with some alt characters thrown in there). This person said Hitler was just an average person, nothing special, blah blah blah. I replied back with something like "Yeah, he just tried to kill off an entire race..." and I got talked to because apparently there's a rule against "being sarcastic in response to someone's personal opinion".
So anyway, this is a roundabout way of talking about an embarrassing issue: I'm middle aged, and for the first time in my entire life that I'm struggling to make friends online. Have I changed? Am I withdrawing even more? Is my obsession with making money on the AH getting in the way? Is it just that so much of the WoW playerbase isn't a match for me that it's harder for me to find people who are?
Maybe I need to take a break from the AH. I'm up to 260K, which remains way way way more gold than anyone needs. (But the gold is there to be made! How can I stop!) Spending my time random RPing would mean I meet more people which would mean more chance of meeting good people.
I joined a forum-based RP, but haven't been back since my character was approved (seems like too much work to catch up on all the 848413421 page treads).
I always come back to: Maybe I should join a MU*. I know two that are active (Garou and a FF one). I'm not a great match on either theme anymore, though I'd lean towards the FF one, though I had some kind of issue with a staffer there (we got into some kind of fight? I don't think I was kicked off the game, I think I just left...).
What it comes down to is I want the same thing online as I want at my job: I want something good to just fall into my lap. A good, tight circle of friends online, a good job RL. No work on my part, just "Here, Thistle, for you! This is what you want and were waiting for!". This is very unlikely to happen.
Rereading this post before posting it depresses me. I wonder if I'll post it at all! Or maybe I will and I'll come scurrying back in 15 minutes to take it down and hope no one saw it!
