Hungry like the wolf!

[thistlechaser]

Is it just me, or does sometimes it feel good to be hungry? I mean like stomach-growling, not eaten in 12 hours or so hungry. Seems odd that that would feel like a good thing (and it doesn't always), but of late I've been enjoying it.

In other Thistle-is-crazy news, I really, really wish I could love more than one thing at a time. I've been this way for as much of my life as I can remember: When I like something, I put ALL of my time/energy/thoughts into it. MUSHing, anime, FFXI are some of the latest examples: When I find something I like, I drop everything else and only love that one thing with everything I have. I dive into that world and drop whatever my last love had been. The new thing is all I think about, all I want to talk about, the only thing I want to spend every waking minute on, and (usually) the only thing I dream about. Other people aren't like this, I know other people can balance different loves and hobbies at the same time, so why can't I?

I think I may end up on a MUSH again before too much longer. I'm reading through some old RP logs (500+ of them, so it's taking me days. I've been reading them for 8+ hours a day for three or four days now!), and it's become that "this is all I can think about" thing. Though it was on purpose that I brought no logs with me to work, I'm now kicking myself for that decision. I don't know if I'll be any good at it anymore, but I think I have to try. Eventually. Once I run out of logs to read. (And boy won't that be a sad day!)

The only problem is, I don't want to give up FFXI. But the only problem with that is, so long as I have these logs to read, I can't even force myself to log onto the game. (I would have came for Eco tonight, if it had happened, but ran off as soon as it was finished.)

So that brings us back to the original question: What the heck is wrong with me? Why do I get fixated on one thing to the exclusion of everything else? I wish I knew.

Comments

[hamburger.livejournal.com]

I'm more like one major thing is in the foreground while a bunch of smaller things(but still much loved, and still with the chance of becoming the thing in the foreground again) continue on at the same time. For example: I'm always keeping my eye on the cel market, even if I haven't bought one in a long time and can't really buy one.

Hey, if you find a MUSH that's decent let me know. I was trying to see about getting into a MUSH I was in before, but the person I had to speak to to do so was never online. :/

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Will do! I have no idea where I'll look for one or even what theme I'll try to go for, but I'll let you know if I find a good one!

[evilgrayson.livejournal.com]

I used to do the into-one-thing thing. I try to balance it these days.

Some nights I'll have a MUSH night. Some nights I'll have a DAoC night. Some nights will be for spending with Merc, watching movies or the TV. I tend to have at least one of each category every week, depending on what's going on.

As for MUSH, if you're looking for Werewolf again, Denver's the best place at the moment. For Garou there are Gnawer, Coggie, Fianna, Get, Glass Walkers and Uktena apps open. For Kin, add Silent Striders.

[kwolfhard.livejournal.com]

*snickers* I used to play a Silver Fang Kin named Ethan there years ago. T'was fun until the whole Phoenix-Jean Grey Goddess Wars happened.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I'd be open to playing WoD again, I think. At least I know Garou, unlike Pern.

Hm. Good tribes open... I have the address saved and I'll poke around on it more after lunch. It's kind of odd to be looking at new MUSHes though. Whichever one I pick will be my first post-PokeMUSH place.

[fealu-bryne.livejournal.com]

Wow, we're far too much alike!

When it comes to the not eating thing... heh heh. I can relate there. At times it hurt, but for the most part? I was feeling better than ever when I didn't eat. So not... fat.

As for obsessing over things, I think it's normal. Looking back, I went through Star Wars, Pokemon, Lord of the Rings, Pern... a whole mess of things. A lot of people seem to do that.

In any case, though, if you do decide to start MUSHing again... lemme know? After going through all those logs and such, I'm RP-hungry.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

In any case, though, if you do decide to start MUSHing again... lemme know? After going through all those logs and such, I'm RP-hungry.

Are you not that active at that SouCon place anymore? Or not happy there? Or just looking for more?

I don't know where, if anywhere, I'll end up, but once I know I'll pass the info along!

[fealu-bryne.livejournal.com]

Oh, I love it there! I recently picked up a new character and I'm loving them to death. It's a really great place, I must say, but I didn't wanna sound like I was pushing you into joining but suggesting it. ^^()

Just really miss RPing with you, particularly, and if you found a place you liked I figured I'd see about joining up... Hee. I'm sad. Yes.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Oh, I see!

And I actually applied to a place Shadow is staffing on, but I've not been approved yet, so of course I haven't seen the RP yet.

[kwolfhard.livejournal.com]

So, if you do come back to MUSHes, Thistle, you should definitely create a character at SouCon. If only to be around friends like peppygrowlithe, Fealu_Bryne, and so on.

Plus, it's fun as hell, and not as plush as Pern used to be. It's getting darker, more fun with friends you've RPed with... etc. And it'd give me more time to talk to you about my ideas concerning Lost! Eeee!

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I spent the morning looking at SouCon's site and reading through the info, but I don't know Pern at all. I know they said it's okay to not know it, but...

Anyway, I'm still poking around here and there. :)

[kwolfhard.livejournal.com]

Trust me, it doesn't take long to get into it. Besides, you have friends there, and they'll help a lot. I mean, a -lot-.

Frankly, I've never had this much fun on a game before, and I've been playing for over a decade, Thistle. It's a total blast to play at SouCon. :)

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

I've always wondered if you saw the pattern of how you get super obsessed with something, then move on to something else and almost entirely drop the old thing. I don't know why you're that way, and I'm not that way myself, but your enthusiasm sure is catching when you're into something. I think you just throw yourself into things so much, you burn yourself out quickly, whereas most people tend to spread their energies out a bit more, so keep certain things up for longer.

As Kevin/T'hvan/whatever his LJ name is noted, we'd love to have you on SouCon if you decided to come back to MUSHing. There isn't an approval system, but somehow it isn't full of sucky people-I'd say it's got about the same proportion as PokeMUSH did, since there were always people that managed to get a decent app in that sucked. And really, most of the really active people are good to excellent. I've tried to make it so I'm not quite as picky as I was with who I'd RP with, but I've not changed that much, and I find myself with a much broader range of people to RP with (it is a bigger place, after all).

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I've always wondered if you saw the pattern of how you get super obsessed with something, then move on to something else and almost entirely drop the old thing.

People, my mother especially, used to point it out to me, but I think I just hand-waved it off. Now it's different though, because I'm starting to miss the things I drop for something new. Maybe sooner or later I'll find some balance... (Not to mention, my obsessions are becoming much, much shorter. PokeMUSH lasted for years, but anime? FFXI? Months at best. That's not a good trend!)

Yeah, I'm looking at SouCon, but I'm just not sure. I don't know the Pern theme well, and what I do know of it hasn't overly caught me... but there are good people there! So I'm not sure. Maybe though! :)

[fealu-bryne.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Ironic. My own mother tells me the same thing.

"Yes Mommy, I know I do that. Yes, I know I should obsess as much over more important things!"

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

*laughs* You know, maybe we're like lost twins or something! :p Did your mother happen to misplace me at some point?

[evilgrayson.livejournal.com]

If you're starting to miss the things you've left behind, I'd actually call that a good sign. It shows that you aren't quite so focused on one thing.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeah, hopefully. I'm going to try to get more balance into my life in the near future.

[quasilemur.livejournal.com]

Bleh, Pern. I'll just say 'Tent peg,' and leave it at that.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

...I have no idea what that means, but I can make some guesses (and those guesses amuse me muchly!).

But yeah, the theme doesn't do much of anything for me, I'd only be going to play with the old PokeMUSH folks.

[quasilemur.livejournal.com]

Heh. 'Tent peg' very succinctly sums up my lack of respect for Anne McCaffrey. Now, don't get me wrong...I can hate an author and love their works. As it happens, however, I both hate the author and find her works insipid. Bonus!

[wanderingscribe.livejournal.com]

You know, I wouldn't see that as something wrong as much as I would see it as a strong point. I have waay too many things going on in the background at once that I can't focus on one main thing at all. It's annoying.

However, I see your point about not knowing why you do it. I know why I can't focus, even if it does me no good, but if I didn't, I'd feel the same way as you.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I never really considered it as a good thing, but all that does make sense!

[mithas.livejournal.com]

*drags you into CoM* You know you want to. ^____^

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

CoM? Sounds familiar, but I can't put my finger on what it is?

[mithas.livejournal.com]

Cities of M'dhoria (http://mud.mdhoria.org/) is the MUD game I started playing which well, practically caused me to disappear off the face of the planet. lol. It's mad addicting and lots of fun. It's a roleplay-enforced MUD, though from what I understand it's not as roleplay oriented as MUSH and MUCKs tend to be. But it's still fun. *drags you to join*

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Oh right! I recall you talking about that before. I'll put it on my list of things to consider, but yeah, I'm looking for really intense RP. :}