Hungry like the wolf!

[thistlechaser]

Is it just me, or does sometimes it feel good to be hungry? I mean like stomach-growling, not eaten in 12 hours or so hungry. Seems odd that that would feel like a good thing (and it doesn't always), but of late I've been enjoying it.

In other Thistle-is-crazy news, I really, really wish I could love more than one thing at a time. I've been this way for as much of my life as I can remember: When I like something, I put ALL of my time/energy/thoughts into it. MUSHing, anime, FFXI are some of the latest examples: When I find something I like, I drop everything else and only love that one thing with everything I have. I dive into that world and drop whatever my last love had been. The new thing is all I think about, all I want to talk about, the only thing I want to spend every waking minute on, and (usually) the only thing I dream about. Other people aren't like this, I know other people can balance different loves and hobbies at the same time, so why can't I?

I think I may end up on a MUSH again before too much longer. I'm reading through some old RP logs (500+ of them, so it's taking me days. I've been reading them for 8+ hours a day for three or four days now!), and it's become that "this is all I can think about" thing. Though it was on purpose that I brought no logs with me to work, I'm now kicking myself for that decision. I don't know if I'll be any good at it anymore, but I think I have to try. Eventually. Once I run out of logs to read. (And boy won't that be a sad day!)

The only problem is, I don't want to give up FFXI. But the only problem with that is, so long as I have these logs to read, I can't even force myself to log onto the game. (I would have came for Eco tonight, if it had happened, but ran off as soon as it was finished.)

So that brings us back to the original question: What the heck is wrong with me? Why do I get fixated on one thing to the exclusion of everything else? I wish I knew.

Comments

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

I've always wondered if you saw the pattern of how you get super obsessed with something, then move on to something else and almost entirely drop the old thing. I don't know why you're that way, and I'm not that way myself, but your enthusiasm sure is catching when you're into something. I think you just throw yourself into things so much, you burn yourself out quickly, whereas most people tend to spread their energies out a bit more, so keep certain things up for longer.

As Kevin/T'hvan/whatever his LJ name is noted, we'd love to have you on SouCon if you decided to come back to MUSHing. There isn't an approval system, but somehow it isn't full of sucky people-I'd say it's got about the same proportion as PokeMUSH did, since there were always people that managed to get a decent app in that sucked. And really, most of the really active people are good to excellent. I've tried to make it so I'm not quite as picky as I was with who I'd RP with, but I've not changed that much, and I find myself with a much broader range of people to RP with (it is a bigger place, after all).

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

I've always wondered if you saw the pattern of how you get super obsessed with something, then move on to something else and almost entirely drop the old thing.

People, my mother especially, used to point it out to me, but I think I just hand-waved it off. Now it's different though, because I'm starting to miss the things I drop for something new. Maybe sooner or later I'll find some balance... (Not to mention, my obsessions are becoming much, much shorter. PokeMUSH lasted for years, but anime? FFXI? Months at best. That's not a good trend!)

Yeah, I'm looking at SouCon, but I'm just not sure. I don't know the Pern theme well, and what I do know of it hasn't overly caught me... but there are good people there! So I'm not sure. Maybe though! :)

[fealu-bryne.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Ironic. My own mother tells me the same thing.

"Yes Mommy, I know I do that. Yes, I know I should obsess as much over more important things!"

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

*laughs* You know, maybe we're like lost twins or something! :p Did your mother happen to misplace me at some point?

[evilgrayson.livejournal.com]

If you're starting to miss the things you've left behind, I'd actually call that a good sign. It shows that you aren't quite so focused on one thing.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Yeah, hopefully. I'm going to try to get more balance into my life in the near future.

[quasilemur.livejournal.com]

Bleh, Pern. I'll just say 'Tent peg,' and leave it at that.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

...I have no idea what that means, but I can make some guesses (and those guesses amuse me muchly!).

But yeah, the theme doesn't do much of anything for me, I'd only be going to play with the old PokeMUSH folks.

[quasilemur.livejournal.com]

Heh. 'Tent peg' very succinctly sums up my lack of respect for Anne McCaffrey. Now, don't get me wrong...I can hate an author and love their works. As it happens, however, I both hate the author and find her works insipid. Bonus!