I'm an idiot

[thistlechaser]

Seriously, I'm an idiot. I stayed online an hour and a half late last night for Besieged, when at best I only get five hours on a work night.

Other than the whole dead tired thing, it was fun. Saw those frog-men for the first time and got turned into a frog! Got screenshots, but I'm at work and they're at home.

The whole night was nothing but frantic rushing, and yet I got almost nothing done. Even knowing I have XP static the second I walk in through the door tonight, I didn't even get my digging crap muled away.

See, it started with us doing the Decimation WSNM as soon as the servers came up. I had the weapon cleared for a while, but wasn't in a rush to do the fight. Happily a bunch of LS people had time to help out, so we ran off and did it!

However, S-E being the writers of the worst code on the planet, that's where things went bad. After the fight I went to talk to the NPC, but instead of finishing the quest and giving me the darned WS, he would only start a new quest for me. >< That darned 'run around the world twice to get a free chocobo egg' one. While it was cute, it took more than an hour of time that I did not have. (Jeuno to LTP to Jeuno to Sandy to Jeuno. WTF! Was it a quest or part of CoP?) In the end I got the WS, but still haven't had time to try it out and see what it looks like.

Then two waves of Besieged. Was fun, but one wave lasted an hour and the other and hour and a half. Too long. zzz

This morning I got up and muled all my digging crap so that I'd have room for BRD armor tonight. Since I was online, I checked my guild turn in.

I'm at 148,800/150,000 GP, and today is the highest point value turn in, so I was really hoping to get this done and finished and never do turn ins again. The item ended up being Bison Kecks, a-fucking-gain. All three times we were at the highest point value it was damned Bison Kecks. 100K to buy at the AH, more than 100K to make them myself. Tomorrow we go back to the very lowest item, which will likely not be worth 1,800 total.

Exhausted, annoyed, and knowing that every non-work moment of my day today will be going into the game. I hate to quote cliched lines, but FFXI: I don't know how to quit you.

Comments

[onionkiri.livejournal.com]

What finally stopped the "I have to be on every minute possible cause otherwise I'm missing something in FFXI! omgguildpoints!chocobos!nidhoggmightpop!mustdoquestnow!" feeling for me was just being away from the game for a while. When you're logging on every day, you always feel like you HAVE to be on every second -- even if you don't want to be.

My advice, and I don't mean to be patronizing so apologies in advance if I come off as such: Take at least a few days away from it. It shouldn't be that hard now, you have FFXII, which is the same but better! (I suppose if you MUST, log on for BRD static, but that's it -- no muling or anything otherwise!) After a couple days away from FFXI-mindset you'll realize that hey -- the world does go on when you didn't get max guild points that day, or dig up your 100 items, or tend to your chocobo, and it's really not a big deal that you didn't. And trust me, going to bed the INSTANT you feel like it, with no pixelated obligations, is totally awesome.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Nah, didn't come off sounding patronizing at all. :) Yeah, 12 was supposed to help with that, but it's not a big enough distraction. I need to find something bigger to put my time into... but then I'll put all my time into that and I'll be back to the beginning again. (FFXI wasn't the start of all this for me. Whatever my "hobby" is gets treated exactly like I am with FFXI. I need to learn moderation. :/ )

[onionkiri.livejournal.com]

Ah, I totally do that too. (Right now I'm playing through Tales of Symphonia again, after spending 100 hours on it the first time...) But hopefully after finishing 12 you'll be out of the must-be-on-every-second mindset that XI is so good at putting people into. Hopefully! I'm scared of playing FFXI again myself, in case I get right back into that. >

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Hopefully, yeah! :)