thistlechaser | Last pre-surgery post!

In under an hour, it will have been 48 hours since I last ate food. Not counting sugar free Jello as food, because no one should count that as anything. While yesterday I ate three boxes of that Jello, today I ate nothing other than water and an ice pop (sugar free, of course). While I am hungry, it's more like "Hey, it's dinnertime, I really should eat" level hunger. The odd thing is I keep forgetting that I'm not supposed to be eating, so it's a near-constant stream of "Hey, I'm kind of hungry, I should have a snack", "Hey, it's almost lunchtime, go eat something." At first it was amusing how often I was forgetting, now it's just annoying.

And know what? Thanks, body, of course my period did start today. Sigh. How many of us knew that would happen? My money was actually on tomorrow, but today's close enough to count. Cramps do not improve the fasting experience, nope.

So anyway, getting up at 3:30 AM (three alarms set! I don't usually sleep through them, but just in case). Leaving home 4:30-ish. Have to be there at 5:30. I don't know when surgery is exactly (hopefully sometime early morning, I'd assume so since I have to be there at 5:30).

I'm bringing my iPad so I can post an "All's okay" post when I'm able to. Hopefully I'll be coming back home on Tuesday. (If I don't keep water down well enough, then it'll be pushed back.) The iPad is a pain to type on, so I won't reply to comments until I'm home.

Very oddly, I'm not nervous at all. My mother said I'm very brave about this, but it's not that either. I feel kind of emotionless about it. Not nervous, not excited, it's just something I have to do. I feel like I should be scared about it, but I just don't feel anything.