I always know when it's 3:30 AM...

[thistlechaser]

So tired. On the best of work nights, I get five hours of sleep. It's rarely a "best of" night. Three to four hours is closer to the norm. Last night I got all of one hour of sleep.

So. Tired.

Ellie New Cat is so full of energy. Every morning from 3:30 to 4:30 AM she races around from room to room (how a galloping cat can be so loud!). Unfortunately this includes my bedroom. And my bed.

LEAP ONTO THE BED! LEAP ONTO PERSON! KILL THAT FOOT! EAT THAT BLANKET! RUN RUN RUN OFF!

I try to wear her out during the day, but it doesn't seem to help at all. I'm considering getting a second cat to keep her entertained and help her burn off energy, but then I might end up with two cats who keep me up at night... (And I'm not sure getting a second cat would be right for her.)

And on a more serious note, I've been thinking about this for a while. I wonder how long it takes for love to happen. More important: Does it always happen? I couldn't have loved my previous cat more. If she had been human and a spouse or child of mine, I couldn't have loved her more. It's impossible for a human heart to feel more love than I felt for her. Ellie New Cat? She's a nice enough cat, but I feel nothing for her. That both makes me sad and makes me feel like I'm cheating her somehow.

I think part of the issue is she's still somewhat scared of me. It's been a whole month now and if I get too close to her, she'll sometimes run off. If I reach for her with two hands, she'll sometimes run off. If I look at her wrong or the moon is waxing or who knows what, she might go running off. She is getting better, every day it seems like she's making an improvement, but it's still so... depressing. I've been nothing but kind to her, I don't even have to lift my voice to correct her (she's so sensitive), I feed her and play with her and give her treats, and yet at times she still treats me like I'm going to hurt her.

I don't mind waiting more for her to come around, I just worry she'll stop making progress and she'll never really trust me. I'm probably worrying too much, that's a specialty of mine. :P

Comments

[voidmagus.livejournal.com]

Thanks for no bannings :). I knew we differed in our opinions on this, but I felt I had to express mine. I wouldn't turn a cat over to an animal shelter either - as in the case I mentioned (Static), I made sure she had a home that was a better fit than mine (and I still miss her on lazy weekends). But in the end, to me, they are still just pets - if an animal is capable of actually angering me (i have a very long temper), then a change of living arrangements is safer for everyone involved.

I totally respect your view, though I don't think I could live that way.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

It'd take a lot for me to ban someone. I'm open to people agreeing on most stuff! Using 'gay' or 'rape' incorrectly after warnings might do it, or "radical right" opinions that clearly aren't open to debate... stuff along those lines would do it. Oh, and NWS pictures left in my comments would have to get people banned since they might get me fired!

if an animal is capable of actually angering me (i have a very long temper)

I've been sitting here trying to think of what an animal could do to anger me, and I'm coming up mostly blank. Peeing/pooping outside of the litterbox would annoy me, but I know it would be for some reason, not the cat doing it on purpose. Biting me would be bad, but again it would be for some reason -- even a "bad cat" would be biting for a reason, some abuse in its past or illness or something. Waking me up in the middle of the night annoys me, but again that's just young cat behavior.

[voidmagus.livejournal.com]

All the things you list I count as mere annoyances. I don't even get annoyed at the waking up in the middle of the night - I just scratch behind the ears and go back to sleep.

Static would forget the other people in the house, would crawl into bed near me and go to sleep. If someone other than me made a noise (a snort, a sigh, jingle of collar tags) she'd wake up and attack the nearest living thing- me. And not "I want to get away from you" fear-attack. I needed stitches a few times, and I never made any move to hold, contain, or even touch her. She was still doing this after 6 months, and after the 3rd night in a week waking up to a furious ball of claws and teeth savaging my arm (and once, getting some deep wounds on my head), I had to walk outside to keep from responding in anger. The next day I started the search for a new home for her.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

That's really strange behavior, I wonder what caused it. I don't know how effective it is, but they make "kitty calm" sprays. One sniff and supposedly it settles them right down.

Oh well, glad she has a new home now!

[voidmagus.livejournal.com]

Tried kitty calm spray. Tried kitty-calm salmon paste catnip stuff. Didn't try kitty calm drops (you add to water bowl, kitty relaxes...yea, #1 ingredient was alcohol. I was not happy with the idea of getting her drunk so she'd cuddle up to the new housemates)

From everything I read, some cats just don't adapt to some particular change. In this case, she couldn't adapt to a 4 month old neutered flirty kitten. From what I read, if some improvement isn't seen in 6 months, the chances of any improvement aren't good.